This was for English, but I liked it.

Where I Live, What I Live For

I went to the woods, because I wished to have a personal experience with nature. I did not wish to live in ignorance, being oblivious to all around me. I wanted to travel deep, to discover what has always been right in front of my eyes, to learn more about myself, to have a transcendental experience. Most would be cautious, traveling into the woods with absolutely no knowledge of how to navigate them, and a camera, to document my life changing event, that would take place in a mere few hours.

I made my first philosophical observance immediately. We are materialistic; we base our lives on obtaining goods. We try our hardest to protect our possessions. Clutching my camera to my chest, putting the hood up on my sweatshirt, turning off my cell phone, I felt scared. I felt detached. I no longer had a connection to anyone. I was there to find a connection with nature. I was there to find a connection with myself.

Pressing on, I felt even more lost, insignificant, small. I happened upon a fallen tree. Its roots expressed its age, its experiences. Climbing on top of it, I pondered, is this what will be made of me when I pass over? Will I be walked on? Its strange, to wonder what will be said of you; to be acquainted with the idea of your legacy, with mother nature so directly. Deeper in, I came to a younger tree. A tire swing hanging from its boughs ironically symbolized its difference from the older tree, it expressed its youth.

I felt a tick cruising my neck, and quickly swatted it away. Tightening my hood, I ran as fast as a could, ready to end my journey, when I came to another realization. When life throws obstacles in your path, you can’t give up that easily, yet; I went through the rest of my journey installed with much paranoia.

Spotting footprints, a greater fear presented itself. Who was this stranger? Examining the footprint more closely, I came to the conclusion it was my own footprint. Sometimes we are so caught up in our own activities, so caught up in what surrounds us, we don’t recognize ourselves. By then, I had learned all I could about myself and my life. Taking all I had learned, all I had observed, I cautiously made my way back, to the world that had already been discovered. I felt refreshed, like I finally understood. I felt for the first time, my eyes were torn away from the technology and the materials I clung to, and I was able to see where I live, what I live for.

Dear Blog Man,

Steph told me to have that be the title this entry. She’s weird, I know. (KiddingKidding!)

I’ve been looking forward to this weekend for a week. I’m finally going to try driving, because I haven’t tried yet, even though I’ve had my permit a week. Also, this weekend, my dad wants to get two cats. Right now, I’m in the car, and don’t have internet connection, so this will be a long entry.

So, about Dollhouse. Its on tonight. If you’re reading this and its around nine, go watch it on Fox! If its after nine, go watch it on Hulu.com!

It’s a Joss Whedon Show. Joss Whedon is also the creator of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, and Firefly. If you know me, you know I am obsessed with Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Really, really obsessed.

Anyway, Dollhouse has been on for three episodes so far. The main character, Echo, is played by Eliza Dushku. She played Faith on Buffy. Echo is a “doll” who lives at the “dollhouse.” Echo has no memories. She walks around the dollhouse with the personality of a child. She can’t remember anything on her own. There are a couple of other dolls in the house with her, including her friend Sierra.

You may be thinking, what’s interesting about a girl who walks around with no personality, and no memories? Well, people go to the dollhouse, and rent Echo. The computer guy, Topher, implants the memories of whatever type of person the buyer wants, in Echo.

For example, the first episode, Echo was a hostage negotiator, and helped save the life of a little girl. The second episode, Echo was just supposed to be an adventurous girlfriend for this guy, who turned out to be a real creep. After they had gone hiking deep in the woods, (and had sex. Yikes.) the guy told her she had five minutes to run, and then he would hunt her down. That is what he hired her for, not for a girlfriend. Echo beat him, obviously, but the relationship between Echo and her handler was presented in this episode.

Echo’s Handler, Boyd, really had a strong dislike for Echo at first. We can tell their relationship has developed, because he cares for her. She is an innocent person with no memories, and it is his job to protect her. Echo always remembers her handler though, because of the code words he uses. When it is time for her to get her memories erased, he tells her it is time for her treatment. She gets her memories erased, wakes up in the chair, and is back to the helpless state without memories. She believes she just feel asleep.

Many Whedon fans have already given up on the show, despite numerous chilling endings, and twists that are sure to come. Already, Echo, in the innocent form without someone’s memories, is starting to remember. She remembers parts of her “missions” after her memories should have been erased. This season will obviously develop on this, as we all root Echo on, hoping she remembers. It is heartbreaking to see Echo implanted with someone’s memories, to help someone, and then lose the memory of this.

There are two other story lines happening in the show. There is a cop, named Paul, who knows that there is a dollhouse out there. He is trying to find it, but faces many difficulties. He receives a picture of Caroline, and we find out Caroline was Echo, before her memories were erased. We don’t know how Caroline became a doll. Did they force her? Did she do it willingly? Paul wants to find out, and hopefully stop this from happening to other innocents. The man he keeps getting tips from, however, is actually another doll, Victor. Dollhouse is throwing him off, and trying to get him killed, anything to stop him from finding them.

There a few other characters I have failed to mention., The woman in charge of the clinic is Adelle. There’s a man who wants Echo to “go to the attic” (whatever that means.) Viewers don’t like him, because he wants her gone. He even talks rudely to innocent Echo. There is a doctor named Dr. Claire. Dr. Claire played by Amy Acker, previously on Angel, has three scars covering her face. She got them from a previous doll, Alpha, which brings me to that story.

Not much is known of Alpha. So far, we are aware that Alpha was previously a doll, until something went wrong. He went nuts, killed a lot of people, scarred the doctor, and killed all the dolls, except for Echo. Somehow, he has a connection with Echo, since he left her alive. There is also a scene, at the end of one episode, of a man, sitting there naked, watching a video of Caroline, aka Echo.

So this season, the story will hopefully develop on:
1. Echo gaining memories
2. Alpha
3. Paul Ballard searching for Dollhouse.

Sounds good, right? Wow, that was long.

Now, Go Watch it.